My Emotions Got The Best of Me Today

I feel as though I got punched back about 10 steps today. I allowed my emotions to get the best of me. Nothing in my inspirational/motivational arsenal did the trick. I finally just let the flow of tears happen at around 7pm central. They are still trickling down as I type this blog.

I have always had issues with dealing with my emotions. It really isn't best to hold things in until you burst. I'm pretty much programed to do just that...been doing it for as long as I can remember. Who has time to deal with all this drama when there are things that need to be done? Surely not me. I will deal with it at a later date. Well that later date always seems to creep up on me until I just cannot hold any of "it" in any longer. Today I held it in up until the point where I was seated comfortably in my Jeep about to head back to the house. That's when it all came out.

I distinctly remember telling myself that I was going to work on ME. That entailed actually listening to what my mind and body were trying to say AT THE TIME THEY WERE SAYING IT! There should be no "Oh I'll get back to you in a minute or two". That pretty much says that I am not that important. It looks as though I'm settling into some old habits. Not good...not good at all.

I am grateful that I was a bit calmer during my future mentor's (when I'm ready) call this evening. I received both some valuable information and a reality check from that call...from every call. Shanel Cooper-Sykes is helping me in so many ways. All I need to do is stay on course and help myself and I will be on my way.

Ok...minor setback today. I can make up those 10 steps plus 10 more. I'm going to keep filling my brain with knowledge, viewing my vision board and changing it accordingly, voicing my mission statement DAILY, and just staying positive at all times. This law of attraction will work for me. It has in the past...and it will again!